I'm sitting here.

Watching Entourage out the corner of my eye, surprisingly good show.

I just read Be's blog and finally realised that I haven't posted one in AGES.

I'm so lazy, I think I get bored WAY too easily.

But then again, I haven't even been on this computer much in the last few weeks.

Why you ask?

This is because I have been..."busy"

By that I mean my most recent boyfriend, Mathew.

He's incredible. To say the least.

I'm not one to talk about guys

hahaha... okay my whole blog is about men. Of ALL shapes and sizes

I remember the post a while ago, it's probably not even there anymore, but it said something like "I've met the ONE, the perfect guy, he's this this this and this."

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

That was a slight FAILURE...

He was horrible, not even two months and I fucked him off.

But Mat.

It has been two months...MORE than two months. And I'm still with him.

And I'm still happy...

I cried heaps, because of his personality. So introverted so I was a bit confused of how he felt...

But now!

We said it.

You know..."it."

Oh my GOLLY GOSH Nicole

The famous, heartless Nicole ACTUALLY said it.

(And meant it :O)

I couldn't believe how hard it was to say it.

Feelings and emotions now apply to me...I hated it.

But yeah, all those love songs n shit actually make sense to me now. I get how they can, "give their all"

Cause fucken hell. I gave everything to this guy. I don't even talk to people anymore. Only him and his mates.

It's funny cause the only thing I kept the same is my old buddy who I talk with.

And what happens? He almost breaks up with me AGAIN.

I didn't really want to tell him that I don't have any friends anymore, that's just pathetic.

But I had to...made him feel bad. Muahahah I felt good about that, you do NOT get angry at me just cause I want to have a life outside of him. Goddamn

Nah that's in the past, all good now.

Ruv. replaced by hate

"I hate you."

"I hate you too."

"How much?"

"A lot."

"gnaw :)"

Well I feel sick. Haven't been eating properly. Soooo I'm gonna throw up and piss off to sleep

Goodnight friends.

just a normal day

Atm I am sitting next to Pietro aka. Peterrrrrr

Listening to Cabron by Chilli Peppers

BEST SONGGGGGG

I am happy today, surprisingly

man, the URL of this blog is the most truest thing i have ever written

SERIOUSLY

ppl. look up the definition of the word ephemeral

u all need to know big words

like me

ok, "me" isnt a big word but u know

U KNOW WAT I MEAN STFU (stuff u)(i know wat it means peter stfu)

but yes.

My humps

good song to duet to

lol joseph

dont read this!

i shall murder myself

mentally

physically, fuck it

sorry for all those who liked me before.

oops over load

I DONT CARE WHAT ANY OF YOU SAY

YOU ALL FUCKEN JUDGE ME

EVEN IF YOU ARE MY CLOSEST FRIEND

OR SOMEONE I DONT EVEN KNOW THE FUCKING NAME OF

YOU THINK YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO DO THIS TO ME?

I WISH YOU COULD ALL GET TOGETHER

ID LAY A FUCKEN MASSIVE GUILT BOMB ONTO YOU

KILL YOU ALL

KILL 'EM ALL

I DONT GIVE A SHIT ANYMORE

YOU DONT KNOW WHOM YOU WRONG BY DOING THIS TO ME

I COULDNT BE ANGRIER

MY FACE IS RED

MY BODY IS A HUNDRED DEGREES

THE ANGER SETS ME IN FLAMES

WHY DO YOU WANT TO FUCK IT ALL UP FOR ME?

AM I NOT ALLOWED TO BE HAPPY

I LET THIS PAST ME FOR TOO LONG

I HATE YOU ALL

THREE PEOPLE I DONT HATE

PETER, RYAN AND JOSEPH

EVERYONE ELSE CAN DIE.

FUCKING DIE IN HOLE AND NEVER COME BACK

I WOULDNT CRY IF THE WORLD EXPLODED TODAY AND I WAS LEFT ALONE

I HAVE NO REMORSE.

I THOUGHT I COULD TRUST ALL OF YOU

I WAS WRONG

I WAS WRONG

ITS ALL MY FAULT FOR LETTING MY GUARD DOWN

NONE OF YOU SHALL EVER KNOW

YOU'LL NEVER SEE THIS

I HATE YOU

I HATE YOU

I HATE YOU

I WAS WRONG

I HATE YOU

Don't believe Be

At the moment I'm sitting next to Bernie. Woo shout out! =D


Um, but yes, sorry for all the guys reading this, but yesterday I got my rags, and I couldn't be happier! XDXD

This morning at stratty station, and this chick was in the waiting line for a ticket, she was HOT. I stared at her for ages until she asked: "What are you staring at?"
To which I replied, "You. You're really hot."
Her reaction: "oh...uh...thanks..." *turns away, face of confusion*
Me: "Nice."




That was my pickup for the day.


BUT YES, most important thing!
I am now in a relationship.

With Hutchi less than three

(thats bernie's thing...i should make a post abt her, i love her)

IT WAS ALL HER I SWEAR, I WOULD NEVER SAY "L♥VE"

Isn't she so hot?
(I know you love me)

Heads up to guys...
Wear thin, white, long sleeve, kinda tight shirts...SO HOT.

Wise words:

Go for it, no matter how difficult it seems!

UNCH ONNNN

On Sunday I went to the city.

One of the most exciting parts of the day happened before I even met up with them!

ok.

I woke up at 9:29 am. Was supposed to wake at 7...oops...

So I went as fast as I could to Bernie's house, shortest visit EVER. Three seconds not even.

Skip the train ride, was uber boring.

Got to Town Hall, snaked my way through a copious mass of people to arrive at the stairs to George Street.

Then all I hear, is a woman SCREAMING. Like, anger screaming. I look up the stairs and right at the top, a woman circling two men while they stare at each other manically. Suddenly, UUNCH ONNNNN! And the little guy goes at him hard out! They fought like little girls, but the tall white guy got the other on the ground eventually.

I thought that was a good chance to get out of there, so I walked up.

Cops show up straight away. She full on accuses the white guy of staunching the little asian dude. like wtf.

And then, they arrested the small guy.

How cool is that?!?

As I was impatiently walking down George Street, I saw two men talking bout it, and I couldn't help but laugh, it was heaps funny!

Conversation started, and we're off.

Best two dudes! Richard and...Dan(Jam as I thought he said LOL)

Then I dogged my 20 minute friendship for my friends.

OH, heads up

NEVER GO TO THE MACCAS ACROSS FROM GEORGE STREET CINEMAS

*waves hands in No Garry No fashion*

Okay I've gone on too long bout that shit.

cya

Rumourssss oOoOoO 8-)

Today wasn't a very good day. Sadly.

I was worried about many things which I cannot disclose.

But then the piece dela resistance came and I felt really bad.

I don't want people to think badly of me. I don't even know half the things I apparently did.

I don't think people realise how bad rumours are, until they have one,

or in my case countless rumours about them.

They soon realise, "oh fuck, so this is how it feels..."

But they never admit it.

I know you feel bad, I know you say, "I know they aren't true so fuck em."

but it hurts, admit it, its FINE.

You could call it Karma or you could say they all hate you.

There can't be that many people that hate you if the rumours aren't true.

SO DON'T ASSUME

ALRIGHT, I'm talking to myself now, if you haven't realised. Couldn't help it.

But its interesting how the people you thought liked you, end up saying that shit

They don't know who they wrong...

Maybe I should throw in the towel and just become a Nun!

No...I'm not worthy of that.

I will try my hardest to be a better person.

I don't care anymore if people don't like me.

But I don't want people to detest me.

Like c'mon.

Just, don't say your judgemental thoughts, and all will be fine.

FUCKEN STUDY YOU LAZY BITCH

Wow, I'm extremely judgemental to myself.

I'm PRETTY sure thats a contradiction to one of the Ten Commandments

oops..