I'm sitting here.

Watching Entourage out the corner of my eye, surprisingly good show.

I just read Be's blog and finally realised that I haven't posted one in AGES.

I'm so lazy, I think I get bored WAY too easily.

But then again, I haven't even been on this computer much in the last few weeks.

Why you ask?

This is because I have been..."busy"

By that I mean my most recent boyfriend, Mathew.

He's incredible. To say the least.

I'm not one to talk about guys

hahaha... okay my whole blog is about men. Of ALL shapes and sizes

I remember the post a while ago, it's probably not even there anymore, but it said something like "I've met the ONE, the perfect guy, he's this this this and this."

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

That was a slight FAILURE...

He was horrible, not even two months and I fucked him off.

But Mat.

It has been two months...MORE than two months. And I'm still with him.

And I'm still happy...

I cried heaps, because of his personality. So introverted so I was a bit confused of how he felt...

But now!

We said it.

You know..."it."

Oh my GOLLY GOSH Nicole

The famous, heartless Nicole ACTUALLY said it.

(And meant it :O)

I couldn't believe how hard it was to say it.

Feelings and emotions now apply to me...I hated it.

But yeah, all those love songs n shit actually make sense to me now. I get how they can, "give their all"

Cause fucken hell. I gave everything to this guy. I don't even talk to people anymore. Only him and his mates.

It's funny cause the only thing I kept the same is my old buddy who I talk with.

And what happens? He almost breaks up with me AGAIN.

I didn't really want to tell him that I don't have any friends anymore, that's just pathetic.

But I had to...made him feel bad. Muahahah I felt good about that, you do NOT get angry at me just cause I want to have a life outside of him. Goddamn

Nah that's in the past, all good now.

Ruv. replaced by hate

"I hate you."

"I hate you too."

"How much?"

"A lot."

"gnaw :)"

Well I feel sick. Haven't been eating properly. Soooo I'm gonna throw up and piss off to sleep

Goodnight friends.